I struggle with my family. I struggle with my dad being gone. i struggle with my sister growing up without a father to be loved by. I struggle with my brother living without a father, a role model. I struggle with my sister not feeling loved or cared for. I struggle with my brother’s blurry dreams. I struggle with trying to live up to my father’s expectations. I struggle with my mother not having a companion. I struggle with her loneliness and sadness. I struggle with her believing she is not deserving of joy. I struggle with her half-hearted smile and her crinkled eyes. I struggle with her hopeless tears, her desperate pleads, her isolated screams. I struggle with her aging, with her fading, with her leaving. I struggle with the idea of death, the same one that ate my grandfathers and my father, the same one that has caught my mother. I struggle with my family. I struggle with this empty hole in our family.
I struggle.



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why does shit have to happen? how can somebody justify two young children having their parents taken away like that?
who would've thought, when i talked to her mother five years ago, that she wouldn't be here today? life is too precious to be cut short. so why does it have to be? and so unexpectedly, too?
don’t forget you.
some people just need reminding.YOU GUYS NEED TO START UPDATING YOUR ELJAYS MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss reading them ;(
WHY THE HELL DID I NOT WATCH THE MATCH???????????????????????????????????
I'M GONNA GET A CAT AND NAME IT OLIVER.
:D
It was good. Therapeutic. Things are a little bit clearer now.. no more mixed signals :)
I lose to him.
I am turning 18 so soon.
*weeps in dark corner*










MY SHOPPING CRAVE IS BAAAAACK!!!
Arghhh superficial superficial superficial...
Saturday May 18th 2002
My dad and I went to watch the planets and stars tonight. It was cool. My dad said the next time I would ever see it would be in 38 years' time. I told him I'll be 50 then and he said he won't be around anymore. That hit me. In the heart. Right in the middle.
:(
:)
Thank you Bapa, thank you Babu.
I'm sorry Bapa, I'm sorry Babu.
(as in, dye the brown parts black)
or
Just here to tell you guys I've dug around in my closet and found a few items I'm willing to sell, since I'm short of dough.
Clothes come mainly from Singapore, Malaysia, UK and Australia.
Prices are reasonable and negotiable :).
Anyone interested, do email me at nadie124@gmail.com, I shall email you back ASAP.
Thanks yalls :D

i'm finally in it!
tomorrows my exam. have no clue when and where it is. today i'm...
..gnna go buy shoes :).

